Yesterday night i was having a conversation with Mindy(not her real name) we were talking about some guy, and she told me that she didn't like that guy. I, who loved Mindy very much, took this opportunity to ask her "then who do you like?" she said "God :) , why? do you want me to say you?" Then i told her i just want her to be honest as i am curious .. she told me " I only like GOD :)" Those words pierced my heart yet i feel happy for her to always have God by her side :) im proud of her.
Later that night, i fell into a deep sleep at around 3:30am and out of the blue, i am back in my Sabah house( I'm currently studying at Selangor) and I was in the kitchen. Suddenly Mindy walked in the kitchen and gave me a big hug, not knowing what to do or say, i hugged her back. she pulled me close and told me " i didn't say i like you, because i love you." Hearing that three words came out of her mouth made me freaking happy! i was beyond cloud nine! I was reaching cloud eighteen or something! Then i hold her closer and kissed her for the first time. It felt magical.
After that, we went to my room, and she sat on my bed, i took out a box from my cupboard, put it on my bed, and i lay my head on her leg while showing her all those little things she used to gave me, we were having so much fun and laughing like we were a real couple. We talked and just enjoy the moment for awhile then went downstairs and ran into my parents. She greeted them nicely and my parents talked with her for awhile, i could see that my parents liked Mindy a lot too. We went to watch tv and was cuddling when i suddenly hear tons of whatsapp message tune, then reality strike, i woke up at my Selangor bed, still thinking it was real.. that i was her boyfriend.. for about 20 seconds, and then the dream just fades away. I was wide awake, and i know that she never said i love you.. and it was all just a dream.
God, why show me this dream when you know she doesn't even like me? I don't understand.
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