Moving on

Dear Mindy(Not her real name) , you're beautiful, you're smart, you're funny, you're easy going, you're very in love with God, you're friendly & kind, but most of all, you're utterly adorable. I don't see how anyone would not fall for you. I am no exception, I too, fell into your charms, I fell deep and find it hard to get out.

The song from Ollie Murs "Dear Darlin' is a song best put for my feelings to you. I'm not really sure whether you were serious or not when you told me that you didn't remember dating me few years back, but just for the record, I enjoyed every 24 days of it. I know it may be short and meaningless to you, or you might not have treated the relationship seriously but those days were heaven on earth to me. Seeing that big sweet adorable smile on your face seriously warms my heart. The way you smile and show your appreciation makes me feel proud of the very little things I do for you. You make me happy :)

After you left with me, I sort of kinda fell apart, but yet, as years go by, I get to see you grow more and more in love with Jesus, and to be honest, nothing ever made me happier. I was on cloud nine! To see you smile truly from the heart, to see you fall in love with the God that deserves your love a billion times more than I do. I thank you for leaving with a good outcome.

All this time I have to admit, I've been really selfish, I've been trying really hard to make you smile, to impress you, and I'm sorry for not seeing what's really important. If being apart from you meant you'll have a greater future and spiritual life, then so be it. I want you to be happy, I want you to grow more and more in love with God, and I want you to change people's life like how you've changed mine. You made me realised how much I needed God, how little faith I have. I'm sorry if I didn't turn out right, and I'm sorry if I disappoint you at times, I've been disappointing quite a number of people recently. But hey, I'll change, I promised not to you but myself that I'm going to be a better man for God. And I won't give up on him. It hurts to know that I wouldn't be spending my future with you but yeah, our conversation yesterday night assured me that you're really strong in spirit and you can certainly take care of yourself, and I respect that. I'd always keep you in my prayers and I hope you'd do the same for me.

I love you, no doubt. But throughout the years in my life, I learn that sometimes when you really love someone, you need to let them go, let them be truly happy, let them smile sincerely from their hearts, even when that sweet adorable smile isn't for you. Thank you Mindy, thank you for the truth and words you told me that eventually opened my eyes. To see reality. I'll miss you, but do know that I'm very proud of you, like how all fathers are extremely proud of their daughters. Please take good care of yourself and overcome every trials and obstacles you might face! Never give up. Never take off that special smile you always wear. God bless.